And I finally completed this blessed Akame .. . I'd had enough, I swear! xD Serving lover that I broke from morning to night! xDDD I'm too hard reread it again before you publish it ... I just hope that there are too many errors u_u''I was thinking that maybe one day I could republish it in English ... maybe ...
one day ... Since I have no intention to privatize my lj, here's some small warning that in words very poor:
This is a fanfiction that is a love between homosexuals and also contains explicit scenes of sex. If the thing you think it sucks, I do not give un'emerita Cippa uu not read and certainly not sprecatevi miners to leave comments, so why not me scratch u_ub
For everyone else, enjoy! * O *
EDIT: is so long that I have to divide it into 2 parts =.=
绊 [Kizuna]
"Aaaah ... home sweet home!"
The moment he opened the door, Kazuya breathed a sigh of relief after spending a hellish day at work. This time, though, the guys had the night off strangely, and then took the opportunity to rest and think a bit 'to himself. The rhythms of the band became increasingly frantic, especially since Jin had them at the moment left to pursue his studies abroad. Since only five remained, and though they have gone one of the main components of the group, KAT-TUN were forced to work almost twice as usual, undergoing a constant stress. Precisely for this reason, Kazuya was looking forward to finally having some time to spend alone and in peace, away from cameras and recording studios, acting as a mere boy of his age and not necessarily as a star in Japan .
He went to the bathroom to take a long, relaxing shower after leaving the stuff on the bed. He heard the phone ringing at home, while under the jet of warm water, but decided to let it go and continue to wash blissfully. After about thirty minutes of total relaxation, Kazuya emerged from the bathroom fresh as a daisy, already dried and dressed, with a pair of pants that usually wore their own comfortable to stay at home. Hearing the phone ring again, sighed and went to see the numbers a bit 'bored ... it was Tatsuya.
"What do you want? We met an hour ago, "thought little before answering, thinking already destroyed his quiet evening for whatever frivolous reason.
"Moshi moshi?"
"Kazuya ..."
"Hey! Tell me, Tat-chan! "
" He 's back! "
... ...
I think I felt bad .. . his heart missed a beat, maybe more than one.
'E' is back ... who, sorry? "
" Like who?! Wake up! He 's back Jin! "
" Ah ... .. ... q-when? "
"Now! He just warned Koki! "
Now his heart was beating too ... instinctively put his hand on his chest, while Tatsuya continued to talk to him, but he could barely hear it ...
Six months had passed exactly ... six months?
He seemed so much more. He even decided to no longer counting the days because she would not think of time not spent ever.
But Jin was finally back ... and instead he was not ready.
What can I say ... what to do ... and most importantly, how he would behave himself, Jin.
He wondered if he had changed or whether it was the usual idiot ever. And if he had forgotten about him? Of all that had been ...
I had not heard, except the few times where Jin had been calling itself, but were of short calls ... just time to wonder how they were, tell just something new. For the rest, their relationship seemed to have left the cold of recent times.
"Well, Kazuya! Are you listening? "
" ... Eh? S-yes, I'm listening. "
"What did I say?"
"Er ... you said ... you said ..."
"What are you waiting for! Jin's almost even, so hurry up! Tomorrow is the press conference and we still have to organize! "
" Ok, get ready and finish ... "
" Move! "
Click!
still could not believe it.
could imagine the smirk Tatsuya from behind the phone ... the other members had always known everything. Kazuya knew what it was excited at that moment, much of them all. They had always kept secret to avoid any detriment to the band, as the wrath of Kitagawa, the wonder of the media and the hysteria of fangirls.
With a heart that was still a thousand, Kazuya looked around confused thinking about what to do first. He tried a pair of jeans by putting upside down the room, but not finding a few seconds later grabbed the white pants that happen before and it changed as fast as he could, risking putting it in the fall to the ground. Quickly finished getting dressed and ran to the bathroom, cursing her hair and ears. It came after quarter of an hour and good, even more confused than before ... took the keys and mobile phone, took a deep breath trying to kick away the tension and finally walked out, ignoring the repeated blasts of Ueda who urged him to Perhaps a kindly move.
Jin leaned a bit 'out the window of the car to better observe the city, noting that nothing seemed to change, since the day he started. Perhaps he would be once again facing the same problems as always, that is those with the band, with ... and Kazuya Kitagawa. He feared that his choice will reveal themselves only a waste of time. As he had longed for years to study far away, maybe for a little escape 'from routine would not have improved things that much, not to say that he would even worse ...
closed his eyes, while a light wind began to move the hair.
"What! In America? "
"Yes, Koki! You heard right! "
" Are you mad? Right now? "
" I prefer now, before it is too late. "
" But we debuted this year! Do not think of the band? Why the hell did not start before all this? "
"It is clear that the inspiration came to me just now ..."
"Jin, please! Avoid to be funny! "
" Let him do what he wants. "
" Kazuya, you're saying? "
"If you want to study abroad, we can not mica stop him ... "
I could still remember that scene perfectly.
"If you really want to go ... then we let you go, Jin ..."
that damn phrase ...
Kazuya's face was troubled, and seemed on the verge of tears, but did nothing to prevent his departure. Maybe Jin wanted to pray to him, imploring him to stay with them for a while 'instead of letting him make a decision as hasty.
But then, who was he to Kazuya? None.
was no longer her boyfriend, but they could not even joking or talking like a decent time, so could not be regarded as even his friend. By now, you could define only one of his co-worker ...
few months before he decides to go, things seemed to go a bit 'better, but soon discovered that sadly it was just reciting a script in front of the cameras. Perhaps because it imposed by a superior, or simply to look good in front of people, but at the exact moment when the lights went out, he immediately returned to harsh reality in which Kazuya Jin did not know ... and consequently, Jin, Kazuya ignored.
It was a situation so frustrating ...
But even more frustrating was the fact that, despite the distance and the various distractions, America never stopped thinking about him, what they were and what they were become over time. Especially at night, a thousand thoughts crowded his mind, making it impossible to sleep ... the nostalgia, the desire to awaken in the morning with a regular breathing tickled my neck, the fear of not being able to have that tight body in her arms ...
"Akanishi-san, we're almost there!"
Among a thing and another, did not even notice that the car had already turned the corner that would have led shortly thereafter by his teammates.
"It was time," said Yuichi saw Kazuya approach.
"There was traffic ..."
"Yeah, sure ..." he smiled giving him a light pat on the back.
Kazuya smiled, then looked around to see if there was Jin.
"has not yet arrived," read to him in thought Koki.
"Ah ... ok."
continued to look around, noting the confusion that reigned supreme in the room: people of the staff coming in and coming out, the speaker of the conference that there would be tomorrow, who's single record that should have again, saw the return of Akanishi. All busy at work ... and even though he had always been the most serious and professional work at that time did not care anything at all. To hell with the individual, one would have expected. To hell with the speech to the conference. He threatened to sit down without even knowing what to say to reporters, but do not care at all.
... He wanted to see Jin
wanted to see every day as they were up to six months before he left.
He missed a lot, even if it were no longer together and their relationship was not even very friendly as before. Was Kazuya was just to leave it, for a series of fights that seemed to have no end ... a little 'for her damned jealousy, a little' to Yamashita, which had never been able to bear ... and a little 'for Jin, because instead of addressing problems always preferred to run away. Even going to America was an escape from reality ... just when it was necessary to overcome all the difficulties with the band, he had thought to slip away.
The dream of learning English to try to hide his weaknesses ... but Kazuya was always able to find them, because by now I knew too well. They had spent the first years in Johnny's Jimusho always together, becoming close friends. For him, Jin was an open book, telling him everything, from the silly to the more important. They spent whole days stuck and never get tired of each other. Then came that moment that marked the beginning of their history ... so that kiss, followed by others who were gradually deeper and deeper ...
..... that night. ....
Kazuya turned his face away, fearing that he was suddenly flushed and the others if I had noticed. Fortunately, everyone was quite busy talking among themselves rather than pay any attention to him. He tried to banish those memories from his mind, not realizing then that the door behind him was opening ...
"Akanishi!" Cried a bit 'of people in the choir.
"Holy cow!" Kazuya thought turning trigger.
Before his eyes the image of a handsome boy's breath away, rather than long-haired, that getting your sunglasses smiled, greeting everyone with a cheery "Hello."
"Jin-ku ~ n!" Junno was on him with a bound, showing his usual exuberance.
"Hey! What's up, guys? "
" Shut up, moron! "Said Koki, going towards him laughing.
Kazuya was still dazed staring at him without even dare to approach.
Jin, meanwhile, looked at him furtively as he continued to greet others. He noticed the lighter hair and those pants whites who liked to die on him.
Just finished a chat with everyone and to free himself from the grasp of Junno on his arm, went up to Kazuya, pretending to feel very confident, even if it actually was not.
The boy's heart began to beat wildly.
"Ohisashiburi, Kamenashi-kun ..."
It felt very disturbed by the fact that the name was more or Kazuya Kame-chan, as it always did before, but tried not to show it.
"You put on weight" he said smiling slightly.
"I ate a lot of hamburgers!" Jin smiled in turn "But you seem to me even more thin ... is not it? "
" I have not noticed ... "
We had the case and how, instead. He had just started to eat more in recent weeks, because before it was too demoralized to do that. Koki had even threatened to take a beating, if he had not decided to get back on track once and for all. He had to worry about his friends because of that stupid ... or maybe just because of him, because he never stopped for a second stream next him.
"You missed me?"
"... Eh?"
face serious difficulties because of the question posed by Jin, but then noticed the stupid smile on his face printed decided not even respond, looking down. Jin acknowledged that smile ... he showed it often in front of people who wanted to make fun of, but not good-naturedly as you do this to a friend.
"Ok, whatever. Do not say anything ... so we were able to exchange at least a few words more than usual. Perhaps to be so distant for months served us. We're making progress, do not you think? "
Kazuya raised his face, annoyed.
"... No."
Judging from her expression, the air was starting to get a bit 'heavy.
Jin s'innervosì lot for the reaction of the guy before him, starting to make noise shaking the keys in his pocket. Tatsuya noticed it and took him by the arm and ask him to sit down and above all to let go, and Yuichi did the same thing with Kazuya.
Within seconds, everyone was sitting on the couch and the waters seem to have subsided, at least for the moment. Meanwhile all the other people changed the room, leaving them alone.
"So, Jin!" Began to speak Yuichi "Tell us a little 'what you did to America!"
"Well, actually I did not then nothing so special ..."
"Hey, give it to whomever you want to drink? Who knows how much trouble you combined! "
" Yes, do tell us! "Junno said enthusiastically," You found some nice girl? "
Immediately, everyone turned toward him, looking as if he had pulled a blasphemy .
"Oh ... it's true, sorry ... I rephrase the question: have you found any nice guy," he asked back smiling innocently.
Kazuya felt an almost irresistible impulse to plug his ears, as well to beat his friend, Jin began simply to laugh in the face of Junno and others shook their heads all thinking the same thing: "that idiot ... "
Jin noted that Kazuya did not seem to show signs of strain even this time, because he smiled as if nothing had happened, not knowing that you were only holding back ... but then thought for a moment and decided to play up a bit ' with fire ...
"In America ... I met a special person."
In that room there was a chilling silence that lasted several seconds.
Yuichi turned to Kazuya, unfortunately finding it as expected ... that is definitely worried by the emergence of Jin.
"A special person," he asked after a while 'Koki.
The boy nodded, while wondering if she really was a good idea to invent a bullshit like that only make the other jealous. But now the trouble was combined ... then thought to still continue with his charade.
"Yes ... a very special person. We also stayed in touch, I promised that next month will find me ... "
They looked stunned when they heard the words of Jin. How he could think of to talk about these things in front of her ex-boyfriend, which by the way was still so obviously in love with him?
"Do not tell us whether a man or a woman?" Kazuya asked suddenly, frowning.
"Does it matter for you, Kamenashi? "
That question, in that tone of voice and mocking smile that did nothing but growing source of his anger, while he tried desperately not to externalize it.
"Simple curiosity," said strong shaking their fists.
"I do not see why you should be so curious, there are things about you."
The others noted concern that the situation was now degenerating ... both boys looked defiantly.
"Ultimately, I'm free, right? I I want to be with the one without accounting to anyone or ask for an explanation. Especially you. "
Kazuya would never have believed that certain words could be so bad.
"Imagine if I ask explanations! I do not care any more about what you do! You can fuck whoever you want, it does not concern me, "cried without even realizing it.
"Really? It would not seem ... "
smiled ironically, while the other was really running out of patience.
could not handle it well ... after all they had spent together, could not make fun of him in this horrible way. He had a great desire to cry, to scream ...
"Akanishi ... I hate you."
That sarcastic smile suddenly vanished from the face of Jin.
no one would ever expect a sentence like that from him. Kazuya was to leave, and it was Jin that he should hate him for that very reason. Although there was never successful ...
"I hate you!" Repeated the other, this time heading even higher and with more emphasis. He was too angry, would not stay there any longer. He jumped up and walked briskly toward the exit.
"Kazuya, where are you going?" Said Yuichi alarmed, rising to meet him.
"A house! Leave me alone for now! See you tomorrow! "
" Come, stay here ... "
" I told you to leave me alone! "Yelled" Do not insist! Special celebrations! "
said, Kazuya left the room, slamming the door violently.
Jin knew at that time I did one of his usual nonsense ... the Its purpose was to make him jealous to test, but not to do so angry that way. He had just returned and had already caused a casino, arguing again just with the person they wanted instead of closer. He felt suddenly stupid ... sighed, covering her head with her hands, watched by his teammates who did not know what to do to resolve the situation.
"Of course you could say things with a little 'more than touch, do not you think?"
Jin Koki stared for a moment with his eyes full of anger, then got up and after taking the bag left him well, not even greet others.
"Well, great! Just as well that from now on things would have been better! "
" Koki, please ... do not put us too, "said Yuichi exasperated.
"If the gentleman to think before speaking, now we'd all be happy and content to celebrate!" Shouted the other, indicating Junno.
"But why?! What did I say wrong? What happened? "
" Koki, let's go! They argued, however, and as you well know, "interjected Tatsuya well.
"What is happened? "
" I know, but we can not always turn the knife, damn it! "
" What happened? "
" Junno, stop or I'll break your nose! "
" What happened? "
shut the door of his house, Kazuya fell on the ground as if he lacked the forces completely.
not could believe what he heard ...
Jin had been put aside their history, because he had found someone else in America.
He had forgotten about him ... his was a distant and fading memory.
When Kazuya was crying at night hugging his pillow, maybe Jin was in bed with that person ... and maybe it was too happy, while Kazuya was suffering ... suffering, hoping that sooner or later, Jin would return to make love with him ...
violently banged his fists on the floor, while letting the tears fall.
finally was at home could ... cry and vent without anyone noticing it. He could cry with all the anger that had kept to himself until then.
began to sob, lowering his head and placing his forehead on the ground.
And then screamed ... screamed as he could, with all the breath in his throat.
"Fuck you, Jin! Fuck you! "
grabbed the remote that was on the floor and threw it against the TV. Then he opened the fridge, took the first things I saw before and threw them, even breaking a few bottles.
risk of injury, but not not care the least ... nothing mattered now.
Jin did not love him anymore. He had been waiting all this time for anything.
But it was her fault ... it was exclusively his, because he had to leave Jin, to make a clean break their relationship. He had been to reject more than a year after they were together.
For what? For some stupid pictures with Yamashita? For his fucking jealous?
He had committed a terrible mistake ... and now I would pay the consequences, even dire. It would be assumed responsibility for his actions.
But how could he do such a thing? How could she leave him?
He left open the fridge and all the mess on the floor, jumping on the bed dead weight.
He felt like shit.
He tried to stop the tears, but it was useless. He could only cry louder.
"Jin ..."
stuck his head under the pillow, as he often did in moments of despair.
Jin He called again and again, and the other between sobs.
She was dying at the thought of not being loved from him. He would never have thought to suffer so much for such a reason ... a reason so apparently trivial. Yet, at that moment he thought he had lost forever a thing of vital importance.
Why Jin was important ... it was too important to him.
After crying endless tears, Kazuya now totally wet the pillow away, resting his head on the mattress and staring somewhere in the ceiling blankly. He stayed so long, while leaving little by little carried away by a whirlwind of memories, in which he and Jin were still agree, laughing, joking ... and above all, they loved both.
translation of some words
Moshi Moshi: Ready
Ohisashiburi: How long
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